Wednesday, August 31, 2016

DAY SEVEN: August 24, 2016




It was the day of my first doctor visit in at least five years.  I hadn’t had any serious health problems in over a decade, yet the people around you and what they are experiencing gives you pause. 

 Whether younger or older, you saw friends and family humbled by physical conditions that came as a complete surprise…God knows I hate surprises.  I’d had my blood pressure taken by a dental tech of all people and damn near rang the bell.  I had an idea that maybe dental techs weren’t the best takers of such a crucial survey, so I asked her to take it again at the end of my cleaning appointment.  I still got the ring-a-ding-ding.  Denial took another couple of weeks before I made an appointment with an M.D.  There was a seven-week wait for a slot, so I signed on and hoped that I would miraculously become whole in that time.  No such luck.

There’s stress in the most minor doctor visit.  All around you are people hoping to extend their stay on Terra Firma, as well as a few looking for a damned miracle.  The anxiety is in the air.  The treatment costs money, but the fear is free.

Flash never had a problem going to the vet’s office.  He loved meeting new people.  He loved the kind words and the strokes between his ears as they performed the various indignities that are endemic to a physical check-up.  He was also invariably healthy.

He actually enjoyed going to the kennel when Kath and I would take the children on vacation.  He had a dedicated run that was all his, allowing him to go outside whenever he wanted, something I’m sure he wished he had at home.  There was a playscape that he used daily, where he could nuzzle other dogs and jump through kiddie pools, or just practice gamesmanship with other alpha males. The last time Flash was kenneled, they told me he didn’t have much patience for the pups that nipped at his heels.  The proprietor told me that ‘when he’d had enough, he’d had enough.’  We didn’t take him back anymore. 

It made me happy that we’d taken the step to have a vet come to the house for his passing, rather than taking Flash to a clinic.  I knew it was going to be trying for me, but it was possible that he would be in his happy place when he died.  It was going to be trying for me no matter where we did it.

Learning that I was pretty damned healthy, aside from a little high blood pressure, put me in MY happy place.  Seeing Flash at the back door when I came home hours late lowered my blood pressure a bit.  We’re both old dogs, but medical science is working extra hard to find a way to get me into my dotage.  His ‘dog years’ put him in the triple digits. 

He prowls the porch at dusk like an evangelist in a Pentecostal revival.  He barks his message into the growing darkness demanding that the unrepentant change their ways.  The days are short.  The end is coming soon.

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